Procrastinating.

Day twenty-four: Your top 3 worst traits.

One: Procrastinating. I am a professional procrastinator. Not something I'm proud of although I'm good at it.

Two: Short attention span. Seriously short. I cannot do just one thing. If I'm watching a movie or TV I'll also be reading, playing games or on social media on my phone. It drives the mister crazy.

Three: Lack of confidence. I write myself off before I attempt new things. I still attempt it but my mind usually is right and I suck. I need to be kinder to myself but after 27 years of beating myself up it's hard to be nice. I'm working on it.

School Didn't Teach Me.

Day twenty-three: Things you've learned that school won't teach you.

School didn't teach me:

• What it's like to work 9-5 because you have bills to pay. 
• Responsibility. Real responsibility.
• How to raise children. I'm still learning and will be until the day I die. Anyone who says they are an expert is lying. 
• What to expect at university. 
• How to keep in contact with your friends now you don't see each other every day.
• How to prepare nutritional meals for lunch. All we ate and drank was sausage rolls and coke. 
• That punishment in school is relative to in real life. I've never gotten into trouble for wearing nail polish or make-up like I was in school. 
• Having a day off at work means you have triple the workload when you get back. 

A lot.

Blogging Problems and Catch Ups

I'm fighting with my blog. We are currently exiting the ignoring stage.

It won't let me change the font style, colour or size. It's very frustrating. Sass is amazing and helped me. If you ever need any blogging help she is your lady. 

I still have a lot of work to do to finish making it pretty enough that I'll be happy with it but it's still being stubborn and I don't have the patience or time to try to get it to work.

I don't feel like going through my old posts and telling you my favourites so I'm skipping Day twenty-one in the Days in May prompts, a list of links to your favorite posts in your archives.

Day twenty-two's prompt is to rant about something. Get up on your soapbox and tell us how you really feel. (a pet peeve, a current event, a controversial topic, something your husband or roommate or neighbor or boss does that really ticks you off).

I've ranted about my blog above. I have a lot more to rant about but really it's all first world problems that make me feel like an ungrateful twerp. Like bitching about, being annoyed and frustrated at my blog. So first world.

I'm Struggling

Day twenty: Share something you're struggling with right now.

Roller derby.

I've lost some passion for it. Some. I'm struggling and feel like I'm not getting any better. I know I've gotten a lot better since I started over a year ago but I feel like I've hit a plateau.

I've decided to take a break to miss it. I don't know if it's the best option but it's a last resort. I'm going to work on outdoor skating, weights and general fitness. I'll still do drills once a week rather than two unless studying gets in the way with that too.

I had this week off and I already miss it. I feel like a teenager who's missed a party. It's not an enjoyable feeling but one that I need to work through, I'm (obviously) not a teenager and derby is hard work. It's supposed to be fun though and I'm not walking away happy. That's not what I want.

In six weeks I'll be back stronger and happier.

My Embarrassing Moment.

Day ten: Most embarrassing moment(s).

Is it weird that I can't think of one big embarrassing moment. Nothing really pops into mind.

I know I've felt embarrassed many times after a night out clubbing, drinking excessively. It could be one reason why I don't like drinking much anymore. Gone are the days when I can be comfortable with forgetting what I did the night before, not that I ever should have been comfortable with that.

I always seem to do embarrassing things. I'm the person who says and does the wrong things at the worst times. I am a klutz too, always hurting myself in strange ways like breaking my nose by head butting my knee.

The key is the ability to laugh at yourself. Don't take yourself too seriously or you will become embarrassed about too much. Life is too short.

Five Blogs I Love

Day nineteen: Five of your favourite blogs and what you love about them.
You Picked a Fine Time to Leave Me Loose Wheel A derby blog by Elektra Q-Tion. There's strategy, opinion posts, good advice and awesome drawings. If I see there's a new post on my reader I always read it last as I know it'll be rad.
Good Golly Miss Holly Holly is intelligent, honest and hilarious. She's not posting as much these days as she has adorable children to look after (I hope she makes more) but when she does you know it's going to be good.
All Derby Drills If you are looking at getting fit that will help with derby or skating then this is a must read. There's a ton of nutrition, exercise, on and off skate drills, strategy and coaching advice. This blog makes me want to coach. 
Pre K and K Sharing Since I started doing activities with lufflump I've been reading a lot of pre-k and kindergarten blogs. This is one of the best I've read with a range of contributors and ideas. 
Documenting Delight Georgia is amazing. I've professed my admiration for her before on this blog and I doubt this will be the last time. Her photos, writing and lifestyle are all so interesting and lovely. Amazing.

One Moment.

Although I am posting this late, this is a moment from the ninth of May.

Day nine: A moment in your day.

Lufflump got his birthday presents from his Opa. Blue Ninja Turtle and Ninja Turtle van, his favourite. He's been asking for these for months now and was so excited.

His eyes lit up and he thanked his Opa many times.

The damn toy won't shut up so at night time he is in 'bed' on top of the TV cabinet.

Childhood Story.

Day eighteen: Tell a story from your childhood.
I don't remember a lot from my childhood. I don't know why. I remember bits and pieces but not a lot vivid.  
I do remember a lot of fun times including one vivid memory of feeding a horse. There was a beautiful friendly horse that lived in the acreage behind my childhood best friend's house. We would feed the horse vegetables but it loved biting the fence posts. Whenever the horse did that it looked like it was smiling a huge grin. We all thought it was hilarious.
Thank you smiling horse, you gave me one of a handful childhood memories.

Advice.

Day eight: A piece of advice.

Source.

My Favourite Photo Of Me.

Day 17: A favourite photo of yourself and why.

F1 March 2013.

I love this photo because it gives the middle finger to anxiety. I'm at Formula 1, having fun and photo bombing the mister's photo of Porches. I'm being myself. Free.

Death.

Day seven: The thing(s) you're most afraid of.
I am most afraid of loss and death. 
I'm not so much afraid of dying as I am afraid of not living. I like my life, I like living and I don't want to stop. The thought terrifies me. My heart is clenching right now typing this. I'm absolutely terrified. I would love to have the ability to take an immortality pill.
I also am afraid of losing my loved ones. My children, the mister, my parents and friends. I've suffered loss before and I'm not a fan. 
I know these are a fact of life and they make you stronger but I still don't want to experience them. I'm not sure many people do and I know I'm not alone. Life sucks at times.

Not Having Perfect Vision.

Day sixteen: Something difficult about your "lot in life" and how you're working to overcome it.

I struggled with this a bit. I'd never heard about 'lot in life' and then didn't know what mine was. Until I had to get new glasses and try contacts today. 

Welcome to how I overcome not having perfect vision. 

Pretty glasses. At least every two years. This year I got two pairs.

First pair!

Second pair!

Contacts. I'm trialling these for derby training. It's so hard in a pack with bad peripheral vision and having to turn around all the time. I'm excited but I love wearing glasses so will leave the contacts to only training.

Contacts.

Not having 20/20 vision can be a pain but it can also be a blessing. I'm glad my vision isn't perfect. It's fun!

What Do I Do?

Day six: If you couldn't answer with your job, how would you answer the question 'what do you do'?
I am fortunate enough to be able to spend time with my babies and the mister when he isn't working. 
I do too much and not enough washing. I clean but never enough. Is there such a thing? I cook. Sometimes. I will be studying and growing. I help Lufflump with his education and speech. I help sesame be herself. I am the mister's team mate. I exercise my body and my mind. I help create a good environment for my children to grow in. I try my best to have lots of fun.

My Day.

7:30 - I wake up still sick but the mister worked the night shift and looked after the kids yesterday while I was sick so it's more than fair that I get up with the children this morning. I get breakfast ready for the kids and read some blogs.

8:30 - Cooking and cleaning is so much easier with Daft Punk. I'm loving their new album so much. 

9:30 - The mister is awake and we have breakfast together while watching The Block. The kids run crazy playing together. Loudly. I hockey tape the fridge so sesame doesn't keep opening it, something she does at least five times an hour. Lunch and dinner has been cooked already which feels fantastic. 

Breakfast and The Block

10:30 - The first load of washing goes on while we all play soccer outside.   

Soccer fun!

11:30 - The mister and lufflump go to the shops to get essentials. Sesame and I laze around eating grapes talking about how crappy Postman Pat is. Sesame goes down for a nap so I tidy and clean.

12:30 - Hang washing out and put another load on. Watch some documentaries on ABC iview while catching up on some blogging. The mister and lufflump come home with goodies like chocolate, V, apples and other groceries. Sesame wakes up. Her and lufflump help us make some soda waters with the Sodastream or at least try to but the gas bottle the mister just bought was empty. Back to the shop for him later.

Cuddles!

1:30 - I have a nice hot shower. We all have floor play with lots of cuddle attacks. We start filling the water feature for the fish as its gotten way too low. I feed the fish some peas which they love. The mister's mum comes over to drop some stuff off including my birthday present!

Awesome birthday present! Bearing press FTW.

2:30 - The mister and I clean my skates, wheels and bearings thanks to my present, a new bearing press. It's so lush and easy to use. The fish are back in the water feature and happy. I hang another load of washing out and put another load on.

Refilling the water feature.

Disgustingly dirty.

3:30 - Afternoon tea is lots of watermelon for all of us. We sit around talking and eating it together. Lufflump watches Transformers while the mister and I watch Deadliest Catch and sesame reads books in her room.

Deadliest Catch.

4:30 - Hang the last load of washing out. There's a spider attached to the clothes line so I hang most of it inside. The spider can stay. I get a phone call that my glasses are ready so I make an appointment for my dad and myself to get them fitted tomorrow afternoon. I call dad excited to tell him.

5:30 - It's time for me to get ready for training and walk to my wife's house to get a lift. The mister has a roast pork on which smells delicious! Sesame is a bit unsettled which means lots of lovely cuddles until she falls asleep.

6:30 - 8:30 - Roller derby training with some awesome people. It's very informal and we work on what we need to. It's great to practice, practice, practice.

9:30 - Home to drama on the webs. Some people don't realise how much their words can affect others. Need food, shower, some TV and sleep.

The Blogger I Love.

Day five: Publicly profess your love and devotion for one of your blogger friends. The blogger whose blog I love to read and is just so lovely in person is A-M from The House That A-M Built. 

A-M's blog.

A-M lives an amazing life which she works damn hard for. Her kids are amazing boys who will be successful in every aspect of their lives. She has amazing style, in her house, food and wardrobe. She's so generous and sweet too. In fact A-M, I still owe you a lunch! 
I want to be A-M when I grow up.

What Makes Me Happy.

Day fourteen: Ten things that make you really happy.

1. My family.
I love our little family of four. They make the days better.

The mister is wild.

Reading in a fruit box is awesome.

I also love our extended family. They may drive me crazy at times but they are amazing.

2. Friends.
If my friends didn't make me happy they wouldn't be my friends. Simple. They make me laugh all the time and that's what I treasure most.

3. Roller Derby.
Quality roller derby is amazing. I've already seen some amazing bouts this year and there are so many more I'm looking forward to including Victoria Roller Derby League's bouts in America next weekend. If you are interested they should be streaming these bouts live on DNN.

NBR are winners.

4. Music.
I'm a big music lover. I don't judge a song by it's genre, if I like it I enjoy it. My favourite songs are by The Beatles, Pink Floyd, The Doors, Beck, Daft Punk, The Eagles, Ellen Allien, Apparat, Guns N' Roses, Illfx, Janis Joplin, Led Zeppelin, Marilyn Manson, Tracy Chapman, She & Him, Florence and the Machine, Queen, Nirvana, Sex Pistols, Infected Mushroom, and many more.

5. Delicious food.
Salmon, asparagus, haloumi cheese, oysters, pine nuts, quality steak, cheese, grilled and roasted vegetables, creamy pastas and chocolate. There's so much more but those are SO delicious!

Yum!!
Source.

6. My back being tickled.
When I'm rich I will have a chief back tickler. He/she will be rich too.

7. Reality TV.
I love documentaries as well as crappy reality shows. Give me Ross Kemp, Louis Theroux, Jeremy Wade, First 48, Hoarders and any polygamy documentaries (not that Sister Wives shit though). I love the Real Housewives franchise, Mob Wives and anything shockingly terrible except Kardashian's, they are TOO bad.

8. Unicorns.
Rad.

ThinkGeek are rad too.

9. Rain.
The sound, the smell, the feel - everything about the rain makes me happy. I love when it rains all day and night.

10. Stationery.
Typo, Smiggle, Officeworks, Kmart, Target, Big W, even Woolworths and Coles all have stationery I want. I love the pretty ones most but even the ugly stationery has me lusting after it. I don't know why but I just love it all.

Favourite Quote.

Day four: Favourite quote and why you love it.

My favourite quote comes from one of the greatest poets, Jim Morrison.

Source.

I remember as a teenager etching this on desks, books, papers and skin. One day I'll get a tattoo of it.

Why do I love it? It's a gory, realistic motion of a body after death. I'd much rather die in the environment than in man's metal casing. I love cars and material possessions but I love nature and the earth more. The hippie in me revels in this quote, in the meaning I take from it. I want to give myself to the earth and circle of life rather than be wasted in fire or materialism. I want to be buried rather than cremated. Giving rather than wasted.